HopeFul Reflections

If there is one thing I’m good at, it’s quitting and starting all over again. On the one hand, I’m lucky I’ve got no shame in being a perpetual beginner. On the other hand, it would be nice to progress one day. I think the reason I felt like I wasn’t progressing with this blog was because I wasn’t looking to progress in a way I felt was truly meaningful. I know I sound like the ultimate spoiled brat when I say this, but I can’t possibly convince my body to do something my mind doesn’t care for. I hate overly complex discussions, I hate not speaking directly, and I hate doing something simply because someone else calls it important. However, this was how I wrote this blog. I wrote like I needed to write for an assignment or to meet someone’s expectations. I should have been writing for my why.

Why write?

I am writing for clarity. I hope that in putting down my thoughts I can clarify my thoughts in order to better understand them and to make them more accurate. When I write I am able to cut through the noise in my head and better articulate my ideas. Furthermore, the reason I write on this blog is because I hope that my search for clarity can help another person looking for clarity. I am not qualified to speak on much but my own experience and so that is what I will try to explain. What clarity am I seeking? I want clarity on my philosophy of life and why I am moved by the events around me. Why do movies bring me to tears, why do I love the people I love, and why do I feel the sudden urge to become productive at 3 a.m.?

A Younger Me

I think I’d like to write for my younger self and my younger brother. If I know anything it is my own life. I know what struggles I faced and conquered with the help of God. I know where I struggle and I know what I felt in each moment. I know I felt so much better knowing others shared my experiences and my feelings. I hope when others read this they do no feel alone.

-JKG